SOUL-RETRIEVAL
Exercises, continued
[Some channeling
is missing because of turning the cassette tape over.]
. . . energetically, vocally, whatever. And
again, you don't have to do them all at once. You can just take
one at a time--your prominent guide, the example that we introduced
you to, in the past couple weeks, all right?
J: Thank
you.
There is one facing you from a past life, a male, dark. Are you
aware of this presence? Almost nose-to-nose with you and having
an influence on you in this life.
J: . .
. energetically I can feel it. It seems to be a source of
some type of anxiety.
Kind of a smothering feeling?
J:
Mm-Hm.
All right. So call in your guide to be present with you. And
listen internally to what he says, and if this is too private,
you needn't share. But if you feel like sharing it, that's fine
too. (Long silence.)
J: It
has to do with an aspect of my being that I had disassociated
with (Melora agrees) and had not been accepting of. And that
is the thing that causes this sense of anxiety that doesn't really
have anything to do with me. You know the story or the drama
that goes on with that that was created as a result of that .
. .
A splinter personality.
J: Right.
So, I guess just an opportunity for me to have knowledge of a
very powerful presence that I react to with a certain amount
of fear and trepidation, so it's just a powerful thing for me
to own that and acknowledge it . . .
We have heard the term "shadow self"--almost like what
they term the darker self, is that so? At least in your
perception.
J: Right.
Something that I've judged as being bad. Almost like an overpowering
or kind of overbearing energy. So I'm just feeling like . . .
my guide is saying to me that it's just this opportunity to just
forgive that and be accepting of that and let go of my judgment
of that, and just let that re-emerge in my being.
All right. We would suggest that you ask that in the form of
a prayer petition now. Your requestingit's a prayer request to
have help in this process, and before the end of the weekend
this will be resolved. But we are being told not to rush in and
take care of this for you now. We are being asked to wait until
we do the one-on-one soul retrieval before the workshop closes.
That it is necessary for you to ponder this event. We assure
you it is not going to haunt you, or cause you undue discomfort,
but that part of the process of coming into harmony with this
will be between now and the end of the workshop.
Pondering this [and we are not without mercy (laughter) in these
processes], the first clue that we got is perhaps to look at
this splinter self in the same way that we have described that
according to the various filters that certain channels have.
An Ascended Being will take on certain colors, will take on certain
personality traits, and the Guide as expressed through you is
a much softer energy than he might be, coming through another
channel. This is the same as looking at the splinter self so
that our first clue was: If you could look at this splinter self
transform into the Guide that you know, this would be a great
help in calibrating or resonating you to that splinter fragment,
where you allow it the possibility of being expressed in that
way that you know and are so comfortable with. Do you see?
It's like turning a coin over. It's like any trait has a positive
expression of that trait and/or what you judge to be the negative
trait, so the ingredients of stubbornness give you the ability
to be loyal. One is judged as positive and the other is judged
as negative, do you see? So if you tried to annihilate your own
stubbornness, you'd throw the baby out with the bath water, because
the loyalty goes as well.
And so it is with the splinter self. It looks to you like the
negative side of the coin, and if you turn it, you'll see its
true expression to be more like your Guide, and as old issues
of fearing abuse of power, also karmic issues of fearing abuse
of power. So there has been a very heightened femininity because
the belief structure here is that this will keep that in check.
There will be no chance for abuse of power (laughs) when the
ultra-femininity is enhanced, do you see? It's only a perception
that if you come into balance with the male, dynamic aspect of
yourself you will lose the control that keeps your use of power
in check. Does this make sense?
J: Yes.
Let me ask you a question, Melora, speaking of this.
We believe in striking while the iron is hot (laughs).
J: And
let's go the one earlier, with part of K's question too. When
you're actually experiencing this fear or this anxiety in your
body, intellectually we know to re-focus our energy on something
else and not resist it, and the analogy that comes up for me
about that is undergoing natural childbirth. I can remember when
I was in childbirth telling myself, "You don't have to perceive
this pain as pain. You can perceive it as just pressure, and
opening, and going through all this technique to try to convince
your body that you don't have to perceive this as pain."
And this thing about fear is the same thing. When you're in process
of it, what is the technique you can use to . . . we know to
re-focus, but how do you do that when you're actually confronted
in the process of that fear?
The pain always comes from resistance--always. And so one needs
to be forgiving of the body resisting feeling the pain. And in
a situation such as you described, in childbirth, acknowledging
pain as pain first is what we would recommend, rather than jumping
to re-focusing. So acknowledging and honoring first the reality
of the sensation of pain first--then making a choice to reinterpret--but
not as a way of blocking, not as a way of going into denial.
There is a difference between blocking and denial, and choosing
to re-focus as you described, on sensation.
For example, the fastest way to make fear shrink is to stand
up to it. The fastest way to make it grow is to give it energy
by continuing to be fearful. Facing fear means saying, "I'm
really afraid!" instead of feeling the emotion of fear,
and then going into denial, or whistling a happy tune. You know
that song . . . (sings): Whenever I feel afraid, I hold my head
erect." Do you remember that one? All right. So that's a
kind of denial. That's a behavior modification that may make
you feel less afraid for the moment, but it doesn't actually
do anything to change the source of the fear.
Yes, maybe if you change the subject you won't feed it and it
won't get bigger, but it doesn't get any smaller either. So with
anything that you feel repelled by or that you feel anxiety about,
actually the more you face it and acknowledge it and say, "You're
darn ed right I'm scared!" (laughs) Or, You're darned right
I'm angry," or whatever it is. When you acknowledge it,
it actually diminishes. And that's why when you express it, it
diminishes. When you block it and deny it, it comes in; it's
held in.
In some people it turns into disease as you know. In other people
it turns into mental problems. So with this shadow self, for
example, or with setting goals that seem very scary, the desirable
thing is to say, "I'm really afraid. This is really scary!"
Or "I recognize this shadow self that I've been going into
denial about or blocking over actually a long period of time."
Iis that not so? "And now I'm gonna just take a really good
look at it and say, 'You know? I'm really afraid of you, and
this is why.'"
And this is the pondering that we were describing, J., between
now and the last part of the workshop tomorrow--the pondering,
where you look it right in the face and you say, "Here's
what I think, and this is why I feel so alienated. This is why
I am not interested in talking to you, or why I keep running
away from you." State those things, and you will watch the
negativity become altered. You will see the shrinking of the
enormity of this thing that makes you feel the anxiety, J. Do
you understand?
J: Thank
you.
It is our pleasure. Give us a moment [to R.]. The image we just
got is that parts of you move forward like a slinky, and then
the rest of them come forward. So it's not like all of you moves
forward at the same time. Do you have any idea why we are getting
this image?
R: Because
it's accurate! (laughter)
What we're seeing is that maybe one of your higher bodies (or
maybe your emotional body) comes up, and then your mental body
and then your physical body are still here, so it's like three
images. Like time-lapse. And then this one catches up with them.
Like a slinky. And then these move up . . . or like a caterpillar.
Do you see what we're saying? This is what we're seeing with
you. So could you describe that to us, what that dynamic is?
R: What
it feels like?
What, in your experience, makes that resonate with you?
R: Well,
this morning we were talking about discomfort--focusing on discomfort
and not moving ahead. I seem to resonate with that because I
feel like I start to move ahead and then I feel discomfort and
I stay there. I think: What's wrong? There must be something
wrong. I have to look here and then I have to look here and I
have to look hereeverything I turn over doesn't quite fit what
feels "wrong." So I feel like I'm stuck.
Well, we would suggest that this is the very reason why committees
are formed, why people have meetings. We would suggest that you
need to have a meeting with these several aspects of you so that
you can come into alignment, because some of them are jumping
ahead and making decisions, and the rest are saying, "Wait
a minute! We're not coming along until we have this all scoped
out."
It would be an interesting exercise for you to figure out how
you can meet with them or in what way that process would be beneficial
or efficient for you. In order to do that you need to identify
which one (or ones) are jumping ahead first and then decide how
you may want to bring the other ones forward. Maybe habitually
the mental one jumps forward first and then the emotional one
is hanging back a little bit, or whatever, and maybe the emotional
body needs to come forward first! And see how the mental body
feels about that for a change. Do you know what we're saying?
You have to analyze this and figure out which one is going first
so that you can now stop it before it starts jumping ahead again
and see which other aspect you'd like to bring forward. At that
point, when you can be consciously "in control" of
that, then you can bring them all forward at the same time because
you are aware of what each of them is doing--do you see--because
they're not all acting as one unit. Have we made any sense?
R: Mm-hm.
What would be your guess about which part of you jumps forward
first?
R: Mental.
That's what we were seeing too. All right. So the mental body
always gives the impression that if it is in command, then you're
fine. It is the first body to want to be in control. And so it's
saying, "Don't worry. As long as I'm first, you'll be making
the right decision," but that creates a splitting or a separation.
You can re-train your mental body. You can just say, "Get
back there! Get back" (laughs) and then consciously choose
to bring your emotional body forward, do you see? Or your third
body, or whatever. So in an everyday situation, why doesn't your
mental body trust your emotional body to take the lead?
R: Just
even talking about it, I'm not sure what it would even look like
to have my emotional body take the lead.
Well, it would feel like something.
R: What
would it feel like? I mean the only sense I get is that I would
feel something more joyful than having my emotional body dragged
along in fear. (laughter) That's kind of what I feel like I'm
doing . . .
Being dragged kicking and screaming . . . (laughter)
R: Yeah.
So this is kind of a new concept to me.
We will leave it at that for the moment.
R: Okay.
We are introducing these now and our Jyoti is saying: "Oh
well. So much for what we had planned at this point in the workshop;
we'll just scramble our time later." And that's true. But
it's as we said--"strike while the iron is hot" is
your expression. While we are in the energy of these great opportunities,
why say, "Oh, well. We'll come back to these tomorrow?"
because the point of power is now. All right.
But in this case we will say: "We will leave it at that
for now because you will be incubating these revelations."
You will be processing them between now and tomorrow when we
do the soul retrieval work one-on-one. And it will move you to
a place where you will be more ready, where you will be participating
more with your own process than otherwise, which would actually
accelerate the process because when you get that Eureka, that
Ah-ha feeling, the power is that it changes you forever.
You can get it mentally, but it will not have the same effect.
The power of revelation is: "I got it in every one of my
bodies all at the same time! We are in accord." The greatest
changes then are possible. That's the difference between revelation
and just understanding something intellectually. And so you understand
that as great a tool as your mental body has become, it also
has limitations.
You understand that your
heart-spirit connection is what propels you forward in spiritual
evolution, not metaphysical mental work. Then you may feel more
confident about allowing your heart and your spirit to take over,
instead of the mental body. And that choice will mean that you
have set a spiritual goal, do you see? You've made a commitment
to spiritual evolution. All right! We are going to close this
part of our program, and move on to the next level of the heart
axis mudra meditation.
Our Jyoti is saying, "Let's
take about a five-minute break, grab those cookies." Her
lips are getting dry. We need to have her drink more water here,
and then we will start with the next part of our session. We
thank you for your cooperation and we will be checking in with
you later. We are Melora.
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